There’s that feeling again. That feeling that something is amiss in my life. The more I dwell on it, the farther I feel from a solution. I’ve pinpointed where there needs to be a change, but I’m not entirely sure how to make it. It all comes back to how I spend my time and the direction of my life. I know what I want to be doing, but how do I implement it into my day-to-day life?
That uncertainty has left me feeling torn. Torn between what I want and what I need. What I want to do with my life won’t necessarily get me what I need as easily. What I need to do, or at least should do, in order to get necessities won’t necessarily get me what I want. That thing everyone wants. So I’m torn. Torn between wanting to be an idealist and a realist. How can I possibly do both? Or how do I choose? A struggle or regret? Happiness or security? How do I choose?
This Blogmas post is a bit of a waste. Not very joyful and Christmassy. I've had a lot on my mind lately and just needed to write it out. Sorry! <3