Thursday, June 2, 2016

Hello


Why hello there. Long time no see. So much for blogging everyday, amiright?? In today’s post I’m going to share with you why I’ve been on a blogging hiatus in a very ramble-y way. If all you care to know is if I’ll be blogging again the answer, in short, is yes. :) 

Surprisingly it’s taking a lot of courage and the pushing aside of nerves to sit down and actually blog. Not due to the personal details I’m sharing even, which is the strange part. Mainly because this is forcing me to recognize and admit to myself my current blogging status aka it’s been lame and nonexistent for quite some time. 

There are a variety of reasons why I stopped blogging for what is the longest break I’ve had yet, and here are a few: 

School 
Being at university a lot of work is involved in every course meaning a great amount of time needs to be dedicated to academics. This “pause” occurred around the time I needed to set aside most of my time to studying for finals, final projects, final essays, final presentations, etc (rightfully so). Eliminating blogging made for one less thing to worry about, which in all honesty really did help my academic performance because I was able to focus on a few things I needed to do rather than have my mind wander to what I wanted to do. I’m pleased to say the proof is in my GPA, too. Woo! 

Involvement 
Now being in a sorority, I’ve had more opportunities to be involved on campus and find my niche, which from the get-go of school I absolutely longed for. Contrasting first semester of my freshman year, I wasn’t going to let these chances be passed up, so in turn, I passed up more chances to blog. Finding myself and my place on campus is absolutely worth procrastinating on publishing. 

Other Interests 
With adult-ing comes the dreaded job-hunt and career choice. As someone with many varying interests this has been a tad difficult. However I’m making some progress. I’m taking real estate classes to obtain my realtor license, as well as working towards starting a small business. Time I would’ve spent blogging is now being dedicated to these areas of my life. I suppose that’s just another part of adult-ing; time management and figuring out ways to juggle it all. 

Rut 
While unofficially stepping aside from blogging, there were moments I did allot for blogging; however I didn’t utilize them. I began to find that the more time I spent away, the harder it was to maintain motivation to create and to get back into the swing of things. And me being me, the more scared and stressed I became because of that. Thus I was stuck in a rut. 

Comparison 
The point above paired with the nasty act of comparison made the idea of blogging less than desirable. I’ve been blogging for many years. The blogosphere has changed and grown a huge amount in this time making me question my place in it. I felt stagnant in this blogging world and couldn’t help but think “what’s the point.” Now I say f-it to that mindset that I fortunately rarely have. I blog for myself and ultimately I always have and will, should I continue. Having readers/friends is a major plus, though. :)

Social Media is my Frenemy
My activity on social media has become habitual, which I hate. Social media is fun and interesting, but I still hate it. I'm sick of waking up in the morning and having checking SM be the first thing I do. It's a norm for so many of us that really shouldn't be. Who wants to live life on a device? As I've gotten older, I know I don't. While I’m still on Instagram and Snapchat quite regularly, I’ve actively been trying to keep my time in front of screens in check. I have a ways to go, but I'm getting there. I was too consumed by it all for a long time, so stepping back from blogging was so beneficial. I’m hoping to move from that imbalance to usage in moderation. Hopefully gone are the days where my cellphone and laptop are basically detachable appendages from my body. Time to be more independent from technology. 

Motives 
When I started blogging, I was at a difficult point in my life. I was dealing with physical health issues, as well as mental (depression & anxiety). On top of that, friends I surrounded myself with were toxic. Basically the combination of all of those things and more left me feeling pretty lost and lonely and in much need of a happy place, so I turned to blogging. What I say on my “About Me” page is absolutely true as to why I started blogging, but the detail above completes that truth. As time passed, though, this motive became less applicable (thankfully). Due to that, though, lately blogging has felt like more of a burden rather than an outlet because I’m not as dependent on it. However recently I’ve been pushing to affirm why I do this, and why I love it. Luckily I’ve found plenty of reasons, so here I am blogging today. Yippee!! 

All in all, this break was much needed. It has helped me to adapt and grow in efforts to become the person I’m meant to be. I think going through times of doubt and fear is actually apart of life that helps with that process. There may be no rhyme or reason as to why these periods happen, but in the end times like these give a great opportunity to evaluate and evolve. 
Ultimately every setback is a setup for a comeback. 

While I make no promises to blog everyday, I will try my best to be active on my little slice of the internet. Here’s to a new chapter of this blog. It’s gonna be fun, friends! To those who have stuck around this last month and longer, thank you very much. Your continuous support means the world to me.

Much love,

Moll

5 comments:

  1. You and me both Molly! I've just returned from on/off breaks as well, I just couldn't commit to it. However I'm so ready now! Always here if you need a chat as well xx
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  2. welcome back lovely! a break sometimes is much needed indeed to get your head straight!
    Pam xo/ Pam Scalfi♥

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  3. Welcome back!! Everyone needs some time off now and again especially when there are more important priorities such as University!
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  4. Glad you made your back to blogging! What do you mean the blog atmosphere has changed? Of course i'm fairly new and have no idea on what it was before 2015. However, it is great that your writing for yourself. The toxic relationships and being at a different part when starting blogging? I relate. Writing has actually recovered me from anxiety and now I live with a glow in life. :) Lovely post.

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  5. Hi welcome back :) Still here!
    Kisses
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